Personal Deliverance

June 2013

You may remember the story of Mery last year (see Daring Deliverance). For a time Mery was tormented by voices in her head telling her not to pray or sing Christian songs, but when I commanded the voices to leave in the name of Jesus, they were soon gone, never to return. A year of peace and tranquillity had now passed. But one day, a new evil spirit decided to enter Mery's life.

One morning, as Mery was getting dressed for school in her bedroom, she saw a little a girl appeared from nowhere (an apparition). Mery described her as someone dressed in white, with short black hair (some of which fell across half of her face). The girl stood in the doorway looking at Mery with death in her eyes. Mery was startled, she immediately let out a scream and ran out through the door (the only way out of the room). By doing so, she ran through the apparition and "it" or "the little girl" disappeared into thin air. Since then Mery had been scared to go into the room by herself, and would often ask her sister to accompany her. This went on for a few weeks until Mery's sister urged her to tell me about what happened. 

As soon as I heard the story, I prayed together with the family near to the doorway of the room where the apparition was sighted. In the name of Jesus, I commanded all evil spirits to leave the house, never to bother Mery or her family again. Since then Mery has not had any more sightings and had not felt any more fear going into the room by herself. Praise God for their deliverance!

Unfortunately the story did not end there. Unbeknown to me, the evil spirit in Mery's house decided to follow me home that day. In the days and weeks to come I began to feel the fear that Mery felt in my own house. I would feel scared going into my bedroom or bathroom or any room when I was alone in the house (and when my husband was at work). Its presence was at times so strong that I would talk at it aloud, commanding it to leave me alone in the name of Jesus. The fear would then subside for a time, but then it would rear its ugly head again. It had began to torment me, testing my faith continually to the heights. I hated it, I hated being in that situation, I felt controlled and chained to this spirit of fear.

About the same time, I began to hear of other friends experiencing "demonic influences & attacks", and have even learnt that one of my in-laws (in another country) has been called to minister exorcism (casting out evil spirits). I realised then that there were so many people who needed prayers in this area, either for deliverance (like Mery and now myself) or for protection (as was the case with my in-law), so I called for another Night Prayer specifically for this purpose. A friend who was acutely tuned to the spiritual warfare joined me.

Night prayer began. After praying for the many people we had on our list, we prayed for me and my problem of fear. I prayed first, then my friend continued after me. My eyes remained closed. As she started to pray, she asked me to repeat the scripture from:

2 Timothy 1:7 
"For God does not give a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind".

Just then I felt some kind of presence come right up close to the side of me, near my left cheek. I saw it in my minds eye, it was a like a colourless wall. I can't fully describe it, but it made me shiver, and it was there persistently. I began to feel separated from my friend who was continually trying to get me to repeat the above scripture. Her voice sounded distant as if she was in another room. Something strange was happening to me, my mind started to go blank and my mouth could hardly utter a word. I started stuttering as I was trying to say the scripture, and I kept getting it wrong, my memory was going blank. What on earth was this thing that was making me like this? Then I remembered Mery's experience of how her evil spirits made her mind go blank, too. It was just the same as what was happening to me. So then I understood what I was dealing with, I decided to fight hard against it.

Just then a new scripture came to my mind so strongly. It was from:

Psalm 23:4
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 
I will fear no evil; For Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me.

I knew in my heart that God had just sent me that scripture to use against the evil presence that was beside me. I had to say this scripture aloud, no matter how blank my mind was, how frozen shut my mouth seemed to be. I had to remember it somehow, and so:

I started to say, "Even if I walk in the shadow of death"....... "urm..urm.. argh, no that's wrong", I said to myself.
Then I tried, "Even though I walk in the valley of death"....... "urm no, no that's not right either", I thought. 

Then my friend tried to help me, she gave me some of the words, but she was careful not to tell me all of the words because I had to come up with all the words by myself.

Finally I managed to say, "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death" .......hooray, relieved!
But then I was stuck again with the next line, I said, "I do not fear because Thy staff comfort me"........ "argh no that's not right"

I know this scripture very well, it's a famous one, but the evil presence to the side of me was making me forget, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't, just couldn't say it right. Finally after several attempts and truly fighting this evil thing with all my might, I had a breakthrough, 

I managed to say,"I fear, I fear no .... urmmm... NO EVIL!!! I fear no evil for Thou art with me, Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me!!". I shouted it aloud!

The funny thing about the whole situation was that - out of all the words that I was forgetting, the word "EVIL" was the one word that I had forgotten most. Whatever that thing was that was next to me didn't want me to say the word "EVIL" (it's almost as if it didn't want its identity to be exposed), but God was stronger and He helped me to remember everything, especially the word "EVIL". And so like a comedian who couldn't wait to throw the punch line, I finally recited the whole scripture, "Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil; for Thou art with me, Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me".

It was indeed a punch line (a line that punches indeed) - because as soon as I said it, the evil presence to the side of me went and disappeared. I felt and saw it go! 

I opened my eyes, and I told my friend what happened to me. She thought it strange that I had struggled so much to say scriptures that are so well-known, but now she understood. She sat calmly next to me and told me the evil spirit that was to the side of me was the spirit of fear that had been haunting me. It has now gone by the Sword of the Spirit (the Word of God). She urged me to use this scripture again if it ever comes back. She also said that though she was helping me, it was of importance that she did not tell me all the words, I had to remember them myself, I had to fight the blankness that the evil spirit threw at me myself because by doing so, I have "overcome" the evil spirit.

Since then I have been freed from fear and life is back to normal again. It has tried to haunt again, but I have fought it back with the above scriptures. It is a spiritual warfare. Christians are prime targets because we are a great threat to evil spirits. In fact, it is a great compliment when evil spirits take the time to attack a Christian because that is usually an indication that that Christian is doing something right and is making evil mad. 

For me, it is one thing to cast out demons out of someone like Mery, but it is yet another level to experience one personally - to feel its harassment, to fight against it, to overcome it, to see it go and claim the victory that Jesus had already attained for us. I have truly been blessed to have experienced both sides of the fence now, as it is the only way to understand this area of ministry fully. Could it be that God is preparing me to go into this area of ministry? Only time will tell.

Ephesian 6: 10-18       

The Whole Armour of God

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this ageagainst spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints

1 John 4:4
4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.