Healing from Sonship

October 2015



Background

In September 2011, I underwent a 5-hour operation on my uterus which was infested with fibroid tumors, adenomyosis and endometriosis. The operation left me with scar tissues and only half a uterus. Menstruation had been heavy, prolonged, and extremely painful prior to the operation; certainly a day off work every month was the norm. The pain continued, however, even after the operation due to all the scar tissues and the damage to the uterus. There was never a month without strong prescription painkillers to numb the throbbing pain that had so often debilitated me -- even from simple walking. 

Many people have prayed for me over the last 20 years:
  • Friends and family, with immeasurable love & compassion; 
  • Strangers, with non-judgemental hearts and genuine kindness;
  • Pastors, elders and people in healing ministries, with authority and power;
  • Children, with the most amazing childlike faith one could ever see.
And how grateful I have been for each one! But, sadly, nothing seemed to change or improve my physical condition.



Revelation & Healing

Whilst attending a "School of the Supernatural" workshop conducted by SpiritLife Ministries (http://www.spiritlife.org.nz/), I was given a chart that would change my life. It was through this "Orphan vs Sonship" chart that I received a "revelation" of who I really am in Christ!

Let me expand...

For many of my Christian years, I have always known that I am a "daughter of God". I have been taught this, and told this, numerous times over the years. People have prayed over me using that expression, and even God Himself has spoken through people to me addressing me as, "My daughter". But all this time, daughtership was only "head knowledge" to me, nothing more than that. It was only when it became a "heart revelation" that I saw and experienced its power!

In other words: while knowing I was a daughter of God for all these years, I had not experienced it or even knew to practise it!

Worse than that, I had in fact been operating mostly with an orphan spirit. I had seen God heal people from the most terrible sicknesses and diseases (some even terminal), and I had even known He had raised many of the dead (mostly in third world countries), yet in all honesty I had never truly believed that He loves me enough to heal me.

And so with my new-found revelation, I prayed for healing for my monthly ordeal. And so it came to pass: the following month, there was no pain at all (so no painkillers!), everything went smoothly, short and sweet! I was ecstatic, it hasn't been like this in over 20 years! There truly is power in daughtership!



Stewarding the Healing

Now, a month prior to all the revelation and healing, I had booked to see a doctor for a checkup. Unfortunately she was on holiday for the whole month, and so my appointment was scheduled for her return, which happened to be 2 days after I had experienced my healing. I went ahead with the appointment anyway, if only to tell her about my miracle.

In the midst of diagnosis, the doctor asked if she could examine me -- both internally and externally. I hesitated for a moment as I had not expected this at all. I mentioned that I had just finished my period 2 days ago, and despite being already "clean", things were still very tender inside. She reassured me that she was going to be gentle. And so I agreed.

To my horror, she was far from gentle! She gave no regard for my body and treated me extremely roughly as if I was a piece of meat! I was left feeling sore through and through! And I was angry! Angry at myself, for letting the situation happen. But then I didn't know that I had to "defend" myself from doctors -- I thought they were supposed to be on my side.

I came home in tears as pain began to return to my body. I cried out to my Father in heaven -- if anything to say I was sorry that I had not stewarded the healing that He gave me just two days earlier. Anger, hurt, and regret were all mixed up in my heart, especially as I saw that I had began to bleed again...

After cleaning myself up, I scoured the "Orphan and Sonship" chart again, and there under "Security", I recognised that I was operating in an orphan spirit: I was insecure with a definite lack of peace! In that instant, I also realised the enemy was acting quickly to try to steal, kill and destroy the security that God gave me! The enemy was trying to nip me in the bud of my daughtership in God. This has now become more than a just a physical problem, it was also a spiritual battle!

And so I hastened to practice my daughtership again:

I pictured myself as a little girl running to her father, telling Him that someone has hurt her and asking if He could make it better! 
Then I pictured Him holding me, loving me, smiling and saying "Yes"

I ran this image in my head and my heart over and over again during the course of that evening, all the while feeling the blood oozing steadily out of my body. I dreaded bedtime, a time when in relieving myself for the night, I would see just how much I had bled. And so when bedtime came, I braced myself for the worst...

To my astonishment, there was not a single drop of blood!
How could this be? I had felt blood oozing out of me all evening!  (You ladies out there, you know what I mean!)

Then I realised, I had just experienced a second wave of the power of daughtership! I praised Him profusely, "My Papa in heaven! You truly are my Papa and You love me so so so much. You have made it all better like You said You would!".

Needless to say I slept soundly that night, anger left my heart, peace and joy returned in bounds. I had not only defeated the enemy by practising my daughtership, but also the revelation knowledge of who I am in Christ has become more real than ever!

The next morning when I woke up, I felt His arms around me, His love and His peace came over me like never before. I cannot fully describe it, but I felt at home, like I belonged and did not need to say anything -- so I was just quiet, savouring every moment, knowing in my spirit that whatever happens, I will be OK -- because He is my Papa.

I call Him "Papa" now, and I call Him that because to me "Father" is too formal, and "Daddy" is the word I used to call my earthly father (and I didn't want to call Him the same because He is the complete opposite to my earthy father). Calling Him "Papa" in my prayers brings more intimacy than calling Him "Father or Daddy" -- and somehow it connects me in a different way to before. Before He felt distant, now He feels so close, just there, all ears listening to everything I have to say because He loves me.



A Powerful Scripture

As I rest in my daughtership, God revealed to me yet another thing hidden in one of the most powerful scriptures - that of the woman with the issue of blood, Matthew 9:20-22, Mark 5:24-34, Luke 8:42-48.

Luke 8:42-48
As Jesus was on his way, the crowds almost crushed him. 43 And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her. 44 She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped.

45 “Who touched me?” Jesus asked.

When they all denied it, Peter said, “Master, the people are crowding and pressing against you.”

46 But Jesus said, “Someone touched me; I know that power has gone out from me.”

47 Then the woman, seeing that she could not go unnoticed, came trembling and fell at his feet. In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched him and how she had been instantly healed. 48 Then he said to her,“Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.”

It has niggled me for years why Jesus called the woman "Daughter". I always got the impression that she was an older woman than Jesus Himself, so I had often wondered why didn't He call her "Woman" instead (just as He had called His mother on a couple of occasions). 

Then it suddenly hit me! He called her "Daughter" because she was practising her daughtership! That must have been what unleashed the power to come out of Him. By calling her "Daughter" not only was He acknowledging her daughtership status, but also her practice of it (as she reached out to touch Him with the belief she would be healed). So this one small word "Daughter" was the big clue to this very revelation in this scripture.

I was blown away, and even more so now than before, as I am now able to relate to this personally. Like that woman, I too had the issue of blood, and in practising my daughtership I had unleashed His power of healing. This made such an impact on me that I can feel my daughtership status beginning to sink deeper, becoming ingrained into my being.



Closing

I had wanted to wait a few months before writing this story to see how I go from month to month. However, as I pondered on it, this story deserves to be told as it is regardless, because there is a powerful message in it that needs to be shared that could well change lives (just as it has done for me).

I heard a preacher once said that there are 2 great revelations for a person to be truly transformed:
  1. The revelation of Jesus's death on the cross and His resurrection;
  2. The Father heart of God (and the power that lies in being His sons and daughters).
This is absolutely true! There are so many Christians for which their sonship/daughtership is stuck as "head knowledge" (like it was for me for many years) and never becomes a 'heart revelation". Consequently, they are living a life of poverty (in many realms); so many things hinge on sonship/daughtership: healing, authority, power, to name but a few. So my prayer for them is that their "child of God" status will become a heart revelation.

I hope this story inspires you not only to know, experience but to practice your status of being a son/daughter of God (for those who have accepted Jesus Christ as their Saviour). It is not a one-off thing, it's a journey! You may have to keep going back again and again to the chart, but know that there is power in sonship and so much inheritance and blessings waiting to be unleashed to you. That's why God adopted us as His sons and daughters, it is the only way that He can give us His inheritance.

All the glory be to Him -- my faithful, wonderful, loving Papa!




Orphan vs Sonship chart, taken from "School of the Supernatural" handbook, Spirit Life Ministries.